what?

yeah, there is a lot on my mind...

Have you heard the quote "Every single person has at least one secret that would break your heart. If we could just remember this, I think there would be a lot more compassion and tolerance in the world." No, I don't know who made this quote, but I like it a lot. Maybe the secret won't break your heart but still... I made the realization of what my secrets were. You know, I never really got the point of secrets though. I mean when you share with others, you're letting them know of an experience as well and maybe they can learn something from it or at least take some sort of understanding. However then there are those who tell too many people. What happens then? I mean if you tell too many people then it feels like no one cares because no one will be able to make a difference in it but yourself right? Dear dear, I hope that makes sense haha


My sister is moving tomorrow. She's going to college. Yep that overachieving sister that I look up to on many levels but at the same time can totally despise her for it, is moving out to move into a dorm. My friend asked me if I was sad, I said no. It's a weird feeling. I mean I think if you asked me a year ago I would have said yes or no straight up. Now, I know I'll miss her, but I'm not sad that she's leaving.. I mean what can I do about it. I guess I've just accepted it. I will miss her, that's all I can really say. Things will defiantly be different without here :/ I don't know how I will take it, but dear god I hope I can. No, I know I can. It'll just take time knowing the relationship I have with my parents. Ima feel hella lonely. I don't know how to make this sound deep and like serious because there is nothing I can do about my sister moving and I am sort of looking forward to not being compared to my sister for awhile. I feel bad though, I'm not showing that I am going to miss her. I hope she knows that I will.. but like I'm not going up to Ann Arbor with her tomorrow becuase I don't feel a point in taking a drive, listening to my ipod, getting out, moving some boxes or just getting in the way of my parents, then prolly lunch/eating, and then a car ride again. I'd rather be resting in my comfy bed thank you. I think part of this (btw, damn i sound stubborn) is because I have a feeling all I'll do is get in the way and be pissed so I'd just rather avoid that. :/ idk It sort of feels like a new beginning, in a been there done that way.
... I'm not going to add to anything about me and my sister. just that she's moving and it'll be different that's for sure. maybe I'll follow up on this later.

I AM thinking.
about?
life
love
change
boys
friends
death
beauty
hate
forgiveness
innocence
mistakes
compassion
tolerance
age
fear
decisions
patience
greed
society
perfection
imagination
confidence


yeah, it's got me thinking.
haha we'll see where it takes me.

btw- if you're actually reading this, I'm sorry this post sucks. My thoughts are completely scattered.


LISTEN TO:
Fall for you -Secondhand Serenade
listening to it makes me get butterflies :]