?+&yesterday

I still don't really know how to use this blog, however, I know how to post blogs, which I think is the only thing it's needed for. lol

Yesterday was fun. It was a party at Ali's aunts house. (a pool party, the water was freezing btw) It was an enjoyable time, but there was a lot on my mind.
In the five hour period, I learned a lot about people. For example, lack of self confidence is a HUGE turnoff; I AM able to say no to a lot of things (I am able to make my own decisions); and there are random people that will tell you the truth about others just so you don't end up getting hurt.

I didn't realize how much it bugs me that people smoke and how it can affect the people around you. Not only is it also a huge turnoff, but it makes you look stupid. Srsly, find something better to do than smoke cigarettes and pot.
So, do I follow the rules? No, I don't. I am flawed. Do something about it, but in some sense yesterday I was really glad I used my instinct and said no to a guy. (I mean, yeah I've said no before but with legit reason. This one kept asking and pushing me to do smthg I did not want to do. (even getting me closer to the ladder to get out) Instead of caving in, I just swam away.

Okay, so
right now, apparently
I might have mono, strep, or just a viral infection :/ It's no fun.
I have been extremely unhealthy with myself, putting my wellness last.
geez. I hope I feel hella better soooon!

peace out girl scout