wonder/listen

Wonder

When words arent enough, but no one but yourself can read your mind.
When even you don't know what is going through your head.
Thoughtless?
Aiming for what you need to get done.
Auto.
Music is just a distraction.
Tired, unhealthy, wanting.



listen.

its like.. reading a story with the montra or whatever as keep your friends close, and your enemies closer.
and just picking up like, wow this guy has a serious anger problem.

neglect.
hate.
you will never understand.
its like i try and give you the chance to.
throw away.
assume.
ass out of you
and me.

shooting signals in the air.
is any body
listening?

i ask for a lot
expect a lot
i know i am
demanding
i've pretty much told every
person that's
ever wanted to get
involved with me
that i am not worth their time.
why?
sometimes it would be because i didn't want to be worth it. i didnt want to be told that im worth more than i should be with them.
i've heard... and have grown used to the thought
that i am worth more than i give myself credit for.

heartache, heartbreak, headache
is it worth it?
ilu.
fine don't believe me anymore.
dont put any faith in me.

like i said
im not worth it.

no i dont want you to leave.
i want you.
but i also want to be
more comfortable around you.
i dont want us to be
fucking
bipolar or some shit
around each other
one second happy, light, the next pissed defensive

seriously.