Underneath it all

I'm still that girl
waiting to be found.
Unwanted everywhere.

When it all comes off,
you'll see
that I'm just a simple girl.
something special.
almost broken inside.
just wishing to hide from it all.


We all too often feel alone in this world, even if there are people willing to reach a hand out and try to help. Even if progression of the original problem is not solved, these specific people give some reason to take another breath.

I miss being 'me'
I don't know who I am anymore.
I know why I make the reckless decisions,
for the most part anyways
but why do I continue doing something I know is wrong?
I have no idea.

I don't know what thrives me.
What keeps me motivated.
If I said boys, you'd say I was trashy
if you don't I will.
If you say friends, I'll casually reply
What friends, the one's that will never be able to understand me, let alone try?
If you say music,
what can I say, with those jackassed musicians out to get some girls.
Some false lyrics made to sound good and sell to make money.
Some fake feeling that you listen to to convince yourself that you're not alone.
whatever.
If you say You, Iris keep yourself motivated
I ask how.

:/
I don't think I ever make sense
oh and I also think I say that ^ too often lol



HC- Oct 11
no date.
pretty dress.

HC game vs. romeo- Oct 10

Powderpuff Game + Drive-InMovie +HC pep rally- Oct 7