so this is something in the back of my head on some days, normally bad days, that comes out.
Has it made a difference for me growing up in a mostly white neighborhood?

Today, some random kid out of nowhere made a remark about me making shoes at Nike. Of course I was offended, more so that I didn't know this person, and that he had no reason to say this to me. I did not speak to him prior to that, and I chose not to retaliate partly because I was surprised at the remark. I mean I was just standing talking to my friend Ashley, this guy comes up and says that.. what?

My school is predominately white, middle class, and for the most part conservative. This is not the first time a remark from a stranger has been made toward me, and the thing is, I don't see myself much different from them (them being I guess the white, middle class, conservative thing), and apart from that, I never chose to be Asian.

Granted, I don't live in somewhere completely trashy and white or something, but people still shock me I guess by how behind they are, and the ignorance they still possess.

This leaves behind a crummy feeling. I am actaully somewhat proud of my Asian ethnicity, but it's not like I flaunt it, or draw attention to it, or anything of that sort. I accept that I'm Asian, but what exactly does that entail?

I don't know why I didn't retaliate or give some talk to this boy about how wrong or incorrect he is or how he could change his attitude, or ask him why he said that, or actaully draw attention to this in general. I'm kind of disappointed I didn't, but what's the point? This scene boy that calls himself an artist will only get so far before he gets swept up in drugs, drinking, and those great friends that are leading him the same way, so really, will telling him he's wrong, why he's wrong for saying what he said, and other just super nice things about stupid stereotypes and the mistake of generalizing stereotypes do anything for me? no. not really.
*another point. Normally at my school, for starting a physical fight you can get suspended automatically 5 days.
If you join the fight, or fight back, or provoke a fight, 4 days. Cheating gets you 5 days. Skipping class gets you like 3 and having too many unexcused tardies/absences, gets you 7 easily.
Bullying by other means, is rarely acknowledged. As in, if a group of people (let's say 5-7 people) boo-ed someone in front of the whole school because they were gay, nothing would be done. OH NO but if a girl dresses like a skank or wears a shirt with some stupid innuendo on it, they can get suspended for 3 days.
Racist remarks, are barely even called out. I remember the first time I actaully noticed was in 7th grade. The boy said chink, straight up, and the teacher didn't do anything about it even after I drew attention to it.

k that's it. I dont think I have anything more to say.
If I had someone to lay in the grass with and watch the clouds, it'd possibly make my day a little better, but I don't so right now, I'll just deal with this crummy-ness.
KBYE :)
good luck on AP exams kids.