TAF09?

fact: I will not be going to TAF 2009.

TAFlove <3There's no other like it.
Why I'm not going? I have my reasons.

Shane the Poet.

Visit http://shanethepoet.com/

"There are certain things that are more valuable than having a perfect ten body, especially if you don't know how lucky it would be to have one. The most beautiful thing anybody can ever physically possess is the ability to manipulate what they do have."
-Shayne Michael Clouthier

that wish.

That wish
was for you.

11:11

Metaphysics+Introspective.

Interesting.
Look into it. It won't waste your time.

"Do you wanna know the real reason why I came here tonight? "

"Do you wanna know the real reason why I came here tonight? Because I knew this was going to be hard for you. And for the first time in a really long time I wanted to be there for somebody….But I want you to know that I think you deserve…I think you deserve more than what you’ve settled for. I do. I think you deserve to be taken care of for a change. I believe that."
-27 Dresses

I can't stand it when people are avoiding you.

impatience

anger. overwhelming.
tears.

happens.
fuck.
thoughts.
lack of compromise.
music. drowns out.

miscommunication.
still angry.
lack of effort.
my fault.?

heart pounding.
decisions.
decisions. decisions.
fuck.
repetition.
reminders.

leads to impatience.
angry voices.

upset.
angry.
I don't listen.
I don't know how to talk to you.
I don't talk to you.

chokes down words.
silence.
stares to the side.
fidgeting.
shut. up.

time.

tomorrow the sun will rise.

We both had done the math. She added it all up and knew she had to let me go. I added it up, and knew that I had lost her. 'Cos I was never gonna get off that island. I was gonna die there, totally alone. I was gonna get sick, or get injured, or something. The only choice I had, the only thing I could control was when, and how, and where it was going to happen. So, I made a rope and I went up to the summit, to hang myself. I had to test it, you know? Of course. You know me. And the weight of the log, snapped the limb of the tree, so, I-I - , I couldn't even kill myself the way I wanted to. I had power over nothing. And that's when this feeling came over me like a warm blanket. I knew, somehow, that I had to stay alive. Somehow, I had to keep breathing. Even though there was no reason to hope. And all my logic said that I would never see this place again. So that's what I did. I stayed alive. I kept breathing. And one day my logic was proven all wrong because the tide came in, and gave me a sail. And now, here I am. I'm back. In Memphis, talking to you. I have ice in my glass.... and I've lost her all over again. I'm so sad that I don't have her. But I'm so grateful that she was with me on that island. And I know what I have to do now. I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?
-Castaway

+& in that moment

I just wanted to say,
"I am sorry.
I made a mistake."

actually

you should really just hate me :[
:/

eat, sleep, study, board meeting.

finals are this week.
2 down. 4 more to go.
Two more days of school left.

School Board accepted the budget proposal= student council is still up in the air.

Peace-
I need to study.

unacknowledged?

It's like all that I do to try and impress you, it goes unnoticed.
and I still feel like I've disappointed you.
Or the things that you do acknowledge, are the things that don't mean much to me.