sooooo
I like your beard.
jk. unless if your andy. because he looks 12 without one. :) yay haha

this update sucks. like sucks sucks. like omg you suck sucks.
got it? sorry for wasting your time!

campaigning
studying.
sleeping.
working out.
life.

efffffff.

so ive been confused.
but i think ill be okay.
hopefully.
eventful, yeah?

soooo, lets start a riot, and not get caught, sound alright? cuze i think it sounds awesome.
even though i wanna stay outta trouble
with errybody.

and i realized. i like people that smell good.
its the best.
and i dont like a lot of boys. or girls.
or people.
i like sunshine though (:
thats an understatement. I LOVE sunshine.

Happy Earth Day!

bye spring break '10

I might elaborate on break another time.
I just wanted to say
I have no voice.
I lost my voice.
I speak in only a whisper now.
On occasion, it'll go up. I sound like a 50 year old chain-smoker then.

Hello boy from the past

so what makes you think you can just walk back into my life again and act like nothing has changed.
oh just because YOU and your was girlfriend are no longer together, you really expect me to reply to you and your calls? and WHY? because you want SEX?! okay, damn boy, you really think im trashy dont you? you think i'm soooo ready to jump back into bed with you. you think you're soooo great in bed and every girl would be begggging to be me, lucky enough to be ASKED to sleep with you? YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME. so I have the pleasure of saying NO. telling YOU how much of a loser you are. telling you GUESS WHAT?! I don't want you anymore, I am not interested in that kind of relationship, I am not interested in the sex, and I am especially not interested in a prick like you. Budddy, things have changed. Sorry i grew a stronger back bone, some standards, and a wee bit more of ethics and values. but you, and then you say you really would want a threesome, and if i would be interested? I literally just LAUGHED. You reallly think I would want anything to do with you and some slutty, nassttty ass girl AND YOU? wow you sure are full of it. enough said? kthanks. sorry, I just didnt realize how dumb some people were :) k night <3

What happened to being 16 and sweet?

I turn 17 tomorrow!
First off, I want to keep this post short, but we'll see about that.
I really don't feel like I did anything good being 16. Actually, pretty much anything I did was bad.
I did not create awesome friendships, but I guess I did develop some deeper relationships. However, I also dug some shallow ones that will probably stay that way until I forget they exist.
I realized, I can care, I can share, and dammit, I can break.


(I'll just say, I was having a lot of fun with Photobooth on my friends Mac yesterday.) <3

I will put myself first before you. You will have to accept that.
I am still learning.
I am still trying to understand.
I am willing to ask questions.
I am (mostly) willing to listen.

but, I get caught up in the moment.
and my judgment is sometimes off because of it.
There's a difference between what I want, what I should want, what I can get, and what I need.
I may sound a bit cynical, but all I need is myself. (that's the one word answer, I swear I can get deeper into that.)

I care, and they care.
I like having a pleasant reminder that I matter. A simple, "Iris, thanks for sticking around and being there for me" or "thanks for making me smile" really makes a difference in my day. I love knowing that I make a difference and I love helping other people
I need to remember that I can make a choice, I can make a difference, and I have the power of one. (don't we all :)

So, right, I said I was going to try and keep this short. I'll (attempt to) end with goals.
I'd like to make someone happy every day. Simply, put a smile on their face.
I'd like to stop lying to myself and people around me. I need to face the cruel facts.
I need to find a way to find myself and to be optimistic.
I would like to keep those people I care about around, and not push them away.
I want to work on self-improvement.
I want to give back to everything, be more selfless, more humble.

mainly, I want to find happiness. :)

Goodnight everybody!
I hope you have some sunshine in your day tomorrow
love,
Iris <3

no more little 16 =P

I haven't updated this in awhile :/
but I just wanted to post something
that... tomorrow is my birthday
and my, what a year its been.

<3
goodbye 16, hello 17
(; I hope you all the best, and hopefully i use this moree!