Goodbye 2008

you will not be missed.
you will not be forgotten (sadly).

what has happened?
what hasnt happened?
first African American is elected as President; change.

what have you lost?
what have you gained?
my soul count; my conscious

what do you want?
what do you need?
stability; compassion

what do you lack?
what do you crave?
trust; trust love



this year has sucked. hands down sucked. no not stunk. it has sucked.
cheats and lies.
ignorance and greed.
hate and denial.


I think there is much to improve on for 2009.
I also think that 2009 will suck.
unless if I START to turn things around.



OH SHIT.


have a happy new year.
happier then mine.
MUCH HAPPIER THAN MINE.
dont save that kiss for me.
dont give me a drink.

just move on.
look back,
forget, regret, save it for later.


fuck you 2008

:]

BREE BREE

last night was just
listning to music and
being stupid with
people you dont find annoying :]

with katie and allie
pics and vids
up sooner or later =P
you'll see them
and think we're stupid young immature kids.
that's because in some sense.
we are.

<3
never forget to live.

but but but no shit.

I might just be dreading the new year.
hope? not lost. not completely lost anyways.
what is there to look forward to?
more mistakes?
more time to pass?
more heartbreak and heartache?

things with parents.
i hate.
more and more. and it only builds inside of me.

I feel like a hallow empty shell.
like I'm taking up space, using money, doing nothing, wasting time
for no fucking reason


give 'em hell.
.. i already am :[



don't think i don't wanna make things better. i do.
but fuck fuck fuck
i cant do it. not with
the way communmication
isn't working
its more like

i wanna be left the fuck alone
and no one will leave me to be alone!

wanna make me happy?
act like you care.
dont just be there
guilting yourself and I by buying me things
that you know I don't need.


damn.

It's December 25

Merry Christmas

Fear of Long Words.

Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia

hahahahhaha
:]