my teeth feel like they're rotting.

she told me i was angry
and depressed
and that she cared about me
and thought i needed help
and wanted me to get help.


have i changed ?

"first to fall, last to know."

-Heels Over Head, Boys Like Girls

This is the worst time to
turn to me, meet me, talk to me.
in my opinion anyways...

I sorta just wanna escape.
take a deep breathe
or two.
lay down.
before rejoining reality.

I don't really wanna talk. like it feels like there is nothing i want to say to you. i'm just waiting for some time to pass.

thanks for trying to relieve me some, actually thanks a lot
but you only got me thinking some more.
I'm unsure right now..

btw halloween's in two days :]
damn +& i still need to get hc pics up on fb. lol

Fear of Dinosaurs

Ornithoscelidaphobia

friend.

have you ever thought that all you wanted was someone to talk to?
srsly.

be in a room full of people.
be completely alone.

yeah,noooooo

"Because you told me I was beautiful.
Because you lied."

renew

lets start with

one. Homecoming was a blast. We had a party bus, and boy did we party. Yes I was above the influence. I beat boys at chugging. I dance like a skank. Do something about it. :P

two. Can you have trust without being honest?

three. I started things over with my mom. Well, I am going to try to. I think this is my last chance to really try.

four. I have a hard time accepting that someone else cares about me or loves me. I don't know why.

five. I am changing. I love, I hate, I struggle. More than ever, I need the support of those around me. I need the motivation.

six. I am unhealthy. I am slowly trying to get better.

seven. I have found myself. Now all I need to do is make it the best it can be. I need hope.


Homecoming was amazing :]

money

Do you not hate how so much of today's society depends on money?
The govt's bail out plan bugs me.
I don't think they should have gotten involved. Then again, I don't know much on the topic just the relative ideas, soo.. yeah.

Homecoming-
I am super excited for it.
but it's seriously adding up.
like +300 easily.
which makes me feel bad cuze my parents get to pay for ALL of it.
and I'm just the lil bitch that gets it :/
:[ I know that I am spoiled by my parents. I hate having to rely on them and feel bad when at shitty economic times like these, I continue emptying their wallet.
damn.


I feel like shit.
My parent's (MOTHER) doesn't trust me.
and she'll fucking SNOOP instead of just asking me.
Fuck.
I HATE THAT A LOT.
and yeah, it pisses me the fuck off.
To add on to that, she won't tell me what's on her mind she'll just make me feel guilty FOR NO FUCKING REASON.
yeah.
and I'll be at home alone, and she fucking calls like every 30 minutes.
Its annoying.
I don't care if you're like "well their your parents, they wanna make sure your okay" fuck it.
No. I don't give a fuck about that. I wanna just lead my fucking life.

UGH
most of the time.
i just want YOU to leave me the fuck alone.
there's a hella lotta 'yous' srry.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
FUCK.